Sunday, April 29, 2012

A Memorable Royal Day

A year ago today, I was sitting in my hotel bed in Atlanta, sipping tea in honor of the Royal Wedding between Prince William and Kate Middleton.  I set my alarm early so as not to miss it, but I hardly slept all night in anticipation of the big day.  I love weddings - especially nostalgic ones like this one.  

It was beautiful.  Simple elegance, grace, and poise.  It was honorable to both tradition, the Middleton family, and to the Royal family. Yet I was undoubtedly moved by one of the best addresses I have ever heard by that of the Bishop of London with him opening this moment with one of my favorite quotes from the entire morning:
"Every wedding is a Royal Wedding for we are all subjects of the King of Creation."

From a "regular" girl to that of a Princess, may we all remember we are Daughters of a King!  Continue on with that of dignity, realizing that whatever we do is a reflection of that with whom we serve. 

Sunday, April 22, 2012

The Journey Continues, But Almost Done

I feel as if the past two months have been a blur.  Hours run into days, and days into weeks.  However, there has come a light to the end of this tunnel!

Detox is no joke.  I can't speak for illegal drugs, but coming off of something as powerful as a prescription drug is something I don't ever want to have to go through again.  However, I have yet another medication that is causing problems and need to come off of, so the journey continues.  But at least I know I can get through it!  Let me bring all of you up to date in my recovery.

After fumbling around on my own trying to keep up a house, laundry, grocery store, and myself by myself for 6 weeks (though a few gracious friends pitched in since I couldn't drive to the store while dizzy), I decided it was best if I "finish" my recovery around my family.  It has been such a blessing to be with them and not have to worry about all the other stuff (laundry, grocery shopping, cleaning the house, etc).  All I had to do was focus on recovery.  I think they would admit that it took some time for them to get used to my ups and downs with this detox.  After all, they hadn't been around me at length to see how dreadful the side effects are.  My most peaceful days were up at our cabin in the mountains where internet, phones, and other electronic distractions weren't possible.  I woke up when the sun came up and went to bed when the sun set.  I read a book.  Watered flowers.  Took a nap in the sun.  I felt rested.  Above is a view from my bed and what I saw each morning as I awoke.  How can one not feel at peace in this environment?  Amazing.

Two weeks into being at home, I started experiencing other symptoms that were not what I was used to with Cymbalta.  During my time away, I had been in constant contact with my doctor so he knew exactly what was going on on a weekly basis.  I couldn't figure out what was causing these erratic symptoms, though!  Then it dawned on me.  I had forgotten to bring one of my medications with me.  Thus, my body had started to withdraw from it.  I emailed my doctor who was extremely concerned and said I needed to be back on that immediately as it could cause my heart to beat faster than normal and cause a heart attack.  For real?!  This was the last thing I needed.  Another problem.

My doctor called in the prescription and after about 7 days I started experiencing relief again.  I guess what they say is true - if it's not one thing, it's another.  He had mentioned at the early stages of getting me off of Cymbalta that I needed to taper off of this other medication, too, but not at the same time.  All this to say, I'll be going through yet another detox coming up soon.  *sigh*  I have become convinced that natural is the way to go if at all possible.  Call me a hippy, but this has been one of the hardest things to do and is honestly nothing to take lightly.  Detoxing off of anything - medication or an illegal drug should be taken extremely seriously.  Chemically compounded medication isn't always the healthiest option.  But that's just me.

All in all, I've felt pretty good the last couple of days - other than a random day today where I was experiencing tons of dizziness and vertigo all day long.  Even as I type this, I have to blink a few times to make my eyes focus.  But I feel about 80% better than I did at the end of February.  Praise the Lord!  It's frustrating because by looking at me, you'd think I was completely fine.  But it's what's going on inside of me that cannot be described unless you're in my presence at the time it's happening and you see the side effects start to take over.  But I'm mostly through that part of it, so again, Praise God for healing!

"Being genuine is better than being perfect -- start feeling good about who you are."  

And I do!  And rather than focusing on the next medication I have to come off of, I'm going to stop and celebrate my upcoming birthday (April 30th) and be grateful for all that I have and all that I've accomplished and overcome in my life!  Here's to a healthier me in all aspects of life!

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