Thursday, August 19, 2010

Confirmation


I had to make a very big decision last night that was extremely hard. I had been praying about it for awhile, and honestly in my heart, I've known for several months that it was what I needed to do but hadn't done it yet. I kept holding on, expecting change, encouraging change, but nothing ever did.

I've had confirmation for over the past couple days, but haven't wanted to go through with it. Now after I've made the decision, I'm receiving confirmation from the most random people. I know that I did the right thing, even though it may be hard.

Making healthy decisions and choices are not always easy. And sometimes, receiving confirmation isn't always the easiest either. But in the next weeks to come, I know (or at least I hope), it will get easier. A co-worker gave me this verse today: "Give all your worries and cares to God, because He cares for you." 1 Peter 5:7 [NLT]

Praying for a renewal and transformation as I head into a new season, though very sad to see what had been not be anymore, even though I know now it wouldn't have been happy in the long run. God sent Noah a rainbow to let him know it would be okay. With that sign, I know that "yes"... it will be okay. And if it's supposed to happen the way I've dreamed it to be, it will be because God allowed it and it's His will.

(PS. I took this picture near my house a couple months ago. I could see the beginning and the end, though couldn't capture it all in one picture! Click on the picture to see the rainbow better. Gorgeous!)

Thursday, August 12, 2010

I AM HAPPY!

(Photo courtesy of Silverline Productions)

There are a lot of good changes happening in my life - FINALLY! I believe it's because I've let go of people, choices, and decisions that were not healthy for me. That's not to say I don't still love or miss some of those people, choices, or decisions, but some of what I was desiring wasn't mine to begin with. They belonged to another, and in the end, I would end up back at square one. So you know what, it feels great to have relinquished all of that! Though I know I need God in order to be the "controller" of my life, I finally feel like I'm "back in the saddle" and on the right track again. I veered off the straight and narrow there for a bit, but things are looking up for me.

Good things are happening at my job. Good things are happening in my relationships. Good things are happening in my finances. Good things are happening all around me! I guess I was so much in a funk the last month that I failed to notice that God was actually working despite my seemingly miserable life.

I'm headed into an emotional/spiritual cleanse here in the next month or so, and it will be good for me. It's always good to do an inventory on your life, and I'm exited to start mine. A new start. Or at least another start. :)

I just now realize that I AM happy. Have you ever heard of saying a sentence or Bible verse while putting emphasis on one word - saying the sentence or verse over and over until each word is individually emphasized? It's actually pretty cool. So....

I am happy.

I AM happy.

I am HAPPY.

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Night Writer

Ok, I really should refrain from writing at night. My anniversary date wasn't as bad as it seems to be in my blog. Yes, it was a reflective day, but being so passionate about life and opportunities, night time intensifies emotions. I should learn not to write at night! :)

I really, truly am blessed, and I am so incredibly thankful for those who have stuck by my through the good and the bad. YOU are true friends. Thank you for encouraging me, inspiring me, and pushing me forward, knowing that God has a plan.

Life is good. And I'm ok. I look forward to what the Lord will bless me with as I continue to strive towards being more like Him.